I love…
I love the witches of this world
But hate their witchery
I love the robbers of this world
But hate their greed
I love the murderers of this world
But hate their hatred
I love the hookers of this world
But hate their actions
I love the addicts of this world
But hate their addiction
I love the alcoholics of this world
But hate their drunkenness
I love the anti-Christ of this world
But hate their views
I love the swindlers of this world
But hate their lies
I love the abusers of this world
But hate their cruelty
I love the lustful men of this world
But hate their desires
I love everyone in the world
And Jesus loves them too! J
Lost and Finding
Something has left my heart
A piece fell on the streets
Within the crowd; oblivious
Part of me was left behind
Now i sit on a stone bench
False nature still blooms sweetly
Gazing through the clouds above me
Did I realise something was missing
My soul awakened to that reality
I have lost something dear to me
A piece of me that never could be replaced
Now swims in chaos and soaks in sin
I see it now
Struggling to survive
Fighting to come back
But its limbs bound tight
I want it back
No… I need it now
My heart is tired
Struggling to fill that gap
Please God
Return it to me
It’s not much to ask
Will you please?
Quiet my thrashing soul
Find rest my weary heart
Enjoy the blissful silence
While it lasts
In crowd and noise
I left it there
In peace and silence
Fragments flew back
Though i long for my heart’s complete
Time will never travel the past
Little fragments now fills that gap
But forever will be that hole in my heart
Crashing waves
Waves crashing
Running to the shore
Soft sand between my toes
Standing helplessly – lifeless
Waves crashing
Knees give way
Salty wind cut open wounds
A lonely tear escapes
Waves crashing
Broken inside
Water laps gently around
Tears lost within the sea
Waves crashing
Gazing afar
Speck of light on distant hill
God breathes words of life
Waves crashing
Thin smile cradle my lips
Seagulls sing, healing my soul
God said “Be salt and light.”
When tears flow…
Is there any wrong in this?
The puddle of milk stains the floor
Why those eyes of despise?
This is not something I wish for
Is there any wrong I did?
Deserving of those cuts to my heart
Why spit out painful words?
I’m longing for those that heal hurts
Is there anything wrong with me?
Love leads to tears inside
Am I not made in the image of God?
At least my tears are precious in His sight
Waiting…
Emotions felt deep in my breath. I let each of it sink deep into my heart, to the depths of it. I closed my eyes to feel the weight of them all and flashed myself a mental image, that of pain and sorrow. This mind of mine has been heavily dosed with senseless thoughts. The frequent question pops like a dark cloud from smouldering flames. “What am I doing here on Earth? Is what I’m working what i really want?” These are the words i long to scream. I waited for my answer. The room is empty, engulf with shadows. In each shadow, a glimpse of my hated past is shown. They show only one thing alike; pain. This pain comes not at all from some trauma of the human flesh. This pain can kill the soul within. Broken bones and torn flesh cannot never compare to my aching heart. I have used this word many times too often. Looking back, I wonder if this word really expressed what i really feel inside. Someday, it will all disappear. I’m waiting for that day…
Lost
Laughing, smiling with no worries in the world. Blissfully naïve. Life was truly a bed of roses, where I lie in deception of the world I lived in. The world, as I thought, was bright and full of hope. It was a place where people could count on others for help; a place where encouragement spread and helping hands were at every corner. I danced at each step, smiled at each second and closed my eyes to find the bright world still lingering in my senses. This was the world I was kept in, till now.
I stared heavily at my stacks of books that lay in front of me. The pressure placed on my feeble shoulders where like fuel to a burning inferno. I gasp and broke in heavy breathing. My head hit the books and beads of perspiration appeared on my ragged skin. Weariness shone in my once glossy eyes. My hand lifted for a second to reach for my pen. This was my life now, when every bit of strength when to studies. I was dragged into a strange world they called reality. Where backstabbing were the only way to get a foothold on success. Where the most vicious reign over the weak. Where a helping hand was a hand that threw you into a well. Where the most trusted were the ones who killed you. This was the cruel place I had lived in for all my life. Only now did I see the light, the truth about the world I live in.
In this life of mine, I had goals and dreams. I worked hard for them thinking that my efforts will take me there. How wrong I was, when I look back to see all my efforts were done in vain. My work crushed into the soil. My blood washed into the drain. How stubborn I had lived. I worked and slogged my heart out and even forgot what I was working for, the goal I was grasping for, to see all glory going to fat, smooth hands that were never rough with work. I was confused. I was lost in the world, hopelessly in deceit.