Jasmine’s bitter, sweet, God-filled life…

Hey! I’m really sorry okie dear? I know you were feeling so lousy after chemistry practical but i thought you could get over it on your own. I’m so sorry for making you feel worst. I’m so sorry to think that you are stronger than what you really are. I’m really sorry. Anyway, I just have this to say: Yes, you may have screwed up chemistry and may have lost so many marks. But that just gives you even more reason to strive to do better for the rest of the chemistry papers. You lost marks in the practical, you just have to make up for it in paper 1 and 2. I know you are studying hard for chemistry right now. And i know you are going to do better than me because of the motivation you have now. So stay strong okie? Love you lots. :)

I miss my lover!!! Where are you?!? HAHAHA!!! better check my papers well or you die!!! :P Joking dear. 

Well got really really sick yesterday and has a stomachache while checking physics paper. Then almost died in the classroom. Then it was gonna rain so decided to go wait for a taxi outside. Then it started drizzling. So there i was with a killer stomachache waiting for my school girls their taxi before i can go and flag down mine. Waited and waited. Then saw my bus come so ran to go catch the bus instead. Meet nice gladys on the bus. Went home, barely able to walk up to my house. Looked into the mirror and shock myself. Haha… i looked scary. Kinda amused myself for while. Haha. Then, lay in bed with my stomach killing me. Haha… Went to toilet 7 times and vomited twice. Sigh. Got stomach flu. Sigh

Well. Debating whether i should go out or not because well, I’m sick and should really be out but the atmoshere in my house is making me feel groggy and unable to do work. But if i go out i think i would feel much better and be able to study. And there’s another problem. Where do i go? Haha. Sigh. :P

Haha!!! I’m sick!!! AGAIN!!! This time it’s really really really really bad. Had a bad headache on thursday night and before i knew it was vomiting in the toilet. :S Oh well… Couldn’t sleep all nite and was groaning in bed. Sigh… I hate being sick. Especially to miss school now when school is ending. I’m miss all my friends. Boohoo! 

Stayed in bed all day in friday and only got up to go to the doctor’s and for dinner. Was feeling really terrible. Had diarrhea, fever, stomachache, headache, nausea… aiya… i was just feeling very sick. Hais. Miss the whole episode in school!!! :( At least i got to sleep for like 24 hours but when i didn’t want to sleep. Haha… Hmmm should have seen it coming since i been feeling sleepy the whole week and been feeling very tired. Oh well. :) At least i’m still alive. :D

Miss the bible study course today that i wanted to go with dan. Sniff sniff. Hais. I really hate being sick… miss so much stuff plus cannot eat a lot of stuff too. :P heehee… (cough cough… that someone who know that i’m referring to you!) Haha… I must finish my chemistry papers today!!! Then try to finish social studies and english tomorrow. Jiayou!!! :D 

Hais such a bad time to get food poisioning or at least i think it is… because the doctor forgot to tell me what illness i had since he was sick too. Heehee.

Jasmine must get well!!!

Woah!!! Tension rising in class. Everyone is starting to study real hard and concentrate in class. Well if we people aren’t listening in class, we are still doing other subject’s revision so yeah… GO 4E5!!! We will make it and we will do well. Hmmm…. I getting scared. Very scared actually. Not just about the coming examinations but also the frustration it’s giving everyone. Everyone seems to be more easily irritating, less patience and sometimes bitter with their words. Oh well. SCARY!!! ARH!!! hahaha. :)

Right now, I’m trying to be as carefree as possible; not letting my anger get the better of me. It’s getting a bit difficult because a kind word can be misunderstood in tense times. I’m still smiling and i will still smile. I don’t mind if everyone vents their frustration on me, I understand and i just want you people to do well. PEOPLE LET’S WORK HARD AND DO WELL!!! GO GO GO!!! :D

Jasmine is really tired. =S

I’ve learned a lot about God today! Really excited… really happy! Really tired to blog. haha… but kinda forcing myself a bit. 

Extract from ‘The Need of the Hour’ By Dawson Trotman

The need of the hour is an army of soldiers dedicated to Jesus Christ, who believe that he is God, that he can fulfill every promise he ever made, and that nothing is too hard for him. This is the only way we can accomplish what is on God’s heart-getting the gospel to every creature

That is what i wanna be!!! I WANNA BE A SOLDIER DEDICATED TO JESUS CHRIST! Heehee. i’m chasing after God’s heart. I too wanna train and recruit others into the army of the Lord. I think that really speaks of what a cell leader should be; training and guiding other to carry on the work of the Lord; training disciples to disciple. YEAH!!!

Hmmm another thing i’ve learn was the idea of loving someone. Only the person you are loving can judge how much love your actions show. I can say that I’m doing all this out of love, but if the person can’t appreciate it, the person won’t see your actions as loving. It’s like giving ice cream to a person who hates it. I love ice cream so much and would really be happy to receive it. I could think that I’m loving that ice cream hater by giving him or her ice cream, but in fact it is not love at all because it’s a torture for ice cream hater to eat ice cream. So to love someone, we must do actions that the person would appreciate but not something we ourselves would appreciate if done to us. Hmm i wonder whether ice cream haters exist in the world. I hope not! I love love love love ice cream. 

Jasmine wants to be God’s mighty warrior!!! :D

Had fun fun cell outing today!!! Ate Zhu zhu’s homemade subway and pie. So yummy… She even made cupcakes!!! She’s the perfect housewife. Dan wants to marry her. haha.. I want to too!!! :) Then we played supermunchins. Took half an hour to figure out that whole game. Haha… But was quite okay… love to spend time with my cell. :) i want to paint the walls of my room pink too like zhu zhu. Somehow i got the feeling that i would regret it if i ever did. heehee. Went to walk around the park with lanterns. Quite fun for camhors like us. heehee. Then got this old ah kong so cute. Saw us and said in chinese, “spring arrived late arh!” Walk to tampines mall and drank honeydew sago. It’s really nice. Wow… I think i’m so in love with food man! haha. :)

Went shopping yesterday with jie. Spent quite a lot. Hope my mum is willing to pay for my expenses or else i doom. Heehee. But nevermind. It has been a long while since we actually had time to spend with each other walking and talking and shopping!!! Hmmm… why is everyone so busy? Hais. 

Today, I surrendered my studies to God. It has been an area that i told i could cope myself and plan my future base on what i can do. But i should just fall back on God and let him lead the way. i will do as well as He wants me to and go wherever He wants me to. Somehow i got a feeling He already has a place for me in some tertiary school and has something for me to do there. I will live for His purpose. Unity in Christ comes with sacrifices. They maybe difficult but i know it’s a price worth paying. :D

Jasmine lives for God and God alone. :)

Hmmm nothing much happen so far. 

Sammy Wammy stayed over on friday at my place. Kinda funny because we were both on the phone and lying on the bed and mattress talking. Heehee. She started it first. Haha… Then fell asleep real fast. Suppose to wake up at 8am but we both didn’t here the alarm. Woke up at 10 instead. So much for waking up early. Went to eat at thai express. Realise that the thai pina colada taste real good. Yum yum! Went to tp and j8 to find my basketball hoop but to no avail. Sigh… I want my HOOP!!!

Someone was insulting me because i was short on saturday…. hmmmm i wonder who… :P Haha… I still love you girl! :D At least everyone in cell is my bf height. :D I going to wear more heels from now on. Since everyone is competing, i join in too!!! But definitely going to lose out.

Twin came over to my house to hang out with me on my lonely sunday morning. Three cheers for her! :D Then had piano lesson for two hours. Phew. Then had tuition. Drank my nice caramel frappuccino venti. Heehee. Happy. Then had swensens takeaway of fries and a GOLDRUSH!!! EXTREMELY HAPPY!!!

Monday was kinda boring. Had to wake up at 8am cause someone couldn’t get out of bed. Cough cough* :) And needed me to call that someone so that that someone could wake up in time to go to school. Heehee. Just teasing only lah. I’m always happy to give my friends a wake up call. Just not too many in one day. When to play bball in the evening. Dunno why suddenly got soooo many ppl. From the usual empty court to 4 groups of people sharing one hoop. Imagine the dribbling and basketballs flying at every angle. I think everyone reading this and know my clumsy and blur nature of mine would think ‘jasmine definitely got hit by the ball’ but no I didn’t! I survived! :) haha. And i don’t get bang down by cars often too. So Mark, don’t need to grab my arm so tightly when crossing the road. I do watch the road you know. Just a bit blur that’s all. Watch 2fast2furious. Like the hot pink car. So cool. But can’t imagine myself driving it.

Tuesday was pretty nice. Woke up at 8. Had a nice cold shower. Watch fast and furious: tokyo drift. Haha. So fun. Was talking to jie on msn and told her that i wanna buy a car, get my license and speed around Singapore. Then showed an eyes bulging icon. Funny! Haha. No lah i not so crazy. :) Maybe a bit crazy but not to that extent. Had another two hours of piano. Remember now why i love the piano. It’s because of the rich sound it produces. Love it man!!! Twin came over to study again. Managed to do a phy paper. I’m so happy! I actually studied. Wow!!! :D Yay!!! Went to j8 for dinner. Had spagetti and a pizza at pastamania. Regreting it already because my tummy feels like it’s exploding. But i was feeling hungry since I only took two slices of bread for the whole day. Oh well. Hehe. Jie wants to be a nursery teacher. Wow. so cool but cannot imagine. Heehee. Jie… nursery teacher…see no link. Heehee… I know i’m mean but… haha. :D

Jasmine is not alone in this world… right right right??? :D

GOOD MORNING!!!

Heehee… Posting just before i go down and eat breakfast. The house is always so quiet and peaceful. Feel like jumping into bed and going back to SLEEP!!! Yawn. Slept really really early yesterday. Actually 10.45pm is really that early but early enough.

Kor left for UK yesterday! Take care Kor!!! Must have fun there! :D Come back for christmas! Then can play basketball and rollerblade with me since by then i will be so free. Hehe.

Somethings very wrong with me. I’m going insane over basketball. Come home end up bouncing it in my room and playing with it while watching videos. I WANT A HOOP IN THE GARAGE or at least somewhere in the house. Basketball is just so fun! Dunno where’s the thrill but it’s there. Retarded man. Hehe.

Today is the last day of prelims. Maths papers. But i hope they will be a breeze. I pray that i would not need to go toilet and i will not feel very cold while doing the paper. My two worst fears when it comes to exams. :P

Jasmine is awake at 6 in the morning. :)